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  I nod and watch his face. I pegged him at an old thirty, but now I see that he’s more like a fit fifty. That makes sense, since the main thrust of the Chechnya conflict happened in the nineties.

  It also means I’m a little more than half his age, which is another advantage. No matter how hard and grizzled a man may be, he still loses something with age, and I can exploit that.

  The two guys in the back are probably just locals. I doubt they have any real experience with this sort of thing. In fact, they both look nervous, although they’re trying to hide it behind their lack of English. If they stay silent, they can’t betray their weakness.

  But that’s okay. It’s not them I’m worried about. It’s Mikhail.

  We pull up next to the cactus cluster and Mikhail kills the engine.

  “Where’s the cartel?” I ask him.

  “Close,” he says. “We’re early.”

  “Should I get the money ready?”

  He pauses then nods. “Yes, good. Get money ready.”

  I open the door, sliding my gun into the front of my jeans in one fluid motion. Nobody notices and I make sure my shirt falls in front of it, covering it from view.

  “You two, with him,” Mikhail says.

  The two guys climb out of the back. My heart is pounding in my chest as Mikhail’s door opens as well. The man behind me steps close as I go toward the back of the car.

  No time to lose. I might be wrong about this, but it doesn’t matter.

  I pull my gun and turn, dropping to one knee. I put a bullet in the chin of the man behind me. It bursts through his skull and splatters his brain all over the car.

  The other Mexican guard opens fire, tearing up the truck. I dive forward, rolling out of the line of fire.

  “Stop!” Mikhail screams. “Hold your fucking fire.”

  I come up and aim, squeezing off two shots. They tear through the windows of the truck and catch the guard in the head. He goes down with a thud.

  Two down, just Mikhail to go. He’s staying down under the windows, out of sight, which is smart. I’m doing the same as I creep around the truck.

  “You’re no ordinary man,” Mikhail calls out. “Who are you?”

  “I’m like you, actually,” I say.

  “Special Forces?” he asks.

  “Navy SEAL, actually.”

  He laughs, and now I know that he’s near the back left part of the truck.

  “How did you get so close?”

  “I was hired to take you guys down.”

  “Better men than you have tried.”

  “I doubt that.”

  I drop to my stomach and fire my gun. I squeeze off three shots and one manages to clip his ankle. He grunts and starts running for the cluster of cactuses.

  I fire after him, but the bullets move wide. I follow, aiming and firing, careful to keep him pinned down so he can’t turn and shoot back. He disappears into the cluster, out of sight.

  I move into the cluster, staying low and moving slow. It’s tight, but there’s enough room to maneuver. The cactuses are tall, about seven feet, and very thick with long pointy spines all over them. They look like cartoons, but they’re very dangerous.

  I move forward, creeping slowly, gun forward. Mikhail is nearby, I know it. He won’t break from the cover of the cactuses because he’s worried I’ll be able to shoot him. He knows I’m a good shot now and knows I’m trained.

  Suddenly a hand flies out from behind a cactus. It smacks my gun down. He brings his weapon forward and squeezes off a shot, winging my arm as I twist and bring my hand up to smack his arm aside. I push harder, pinning his arm against the cactus.

  He yells in pain and drops his gun. I move to twist mine up but he brings a knee up, catching my stomach and pushing me back. I drop my gun as I twist out of the way of a cactus.

  He comes at me, jumping up to slam his fist down. I take it on the jaw and stumble back before getting my hands up to defend myself. I strike back but I’m losing ground as he forces me back with a series of punches. I take them on the arms, blocking my face, and I can feel a cactus behind me.

  He shoves and the spines stab into my body. I shout in pain then twist to the side, falling to the ground and rolling. I can feel the spines dig into my body but the pain doesn’t matter. Pain is only temporary, but death is permanent.

  I come up to my feet and turn just in time to catch a kick to my knee. I stumble as he follows with a punch. I dodge and his fist slams into a cactus, burying spines into his skin. He shouts in pain and I come up beside him, punching him in the gut and face.

  He stumbles away and attacks again ferociously. I dodge and weave away. He’s stronger and faster than I would have guessed. Blood runs down his fist but it doesn’t slow him down. I take a few blows and give a few back.

  We’re at the edge of the cactus cluster now, and I know I have to end this soon. There’s a short drop and a small hill, probably from running rainwater, just to our left.

  I turn right and catch a punch to the jaw, but I shove him toward it. He recovers, but his foot slips down the gravel, losing his balance.

  I jump, planting both feet in his chest, kicking him back. He topples and falls, hitting the ground with a thud and rolls down the hill.

  As I get to my feet, I grab a baseball-sized rock and run after him. He rolls to the side as I smash it down where his head was just a second ago. He punches my kidney but I swing the rock wildly.

  It connects with his jaw. He grunts and falls backward. I jump on top of him and slam the rock down again and again and again until he’s not moving and his face isn’t recognizable as a face anymore.

  Panting, bleeding, and in pain, I slowly stand up.

  I look around at the scene. Mikhail and the two guards lie there in their own pools of blood. I reach back and start plucking as many spines from my skin as I can, but I know I’m missing some.

  I get back to the truck. The keys are still in the ignition and it starts. Luckily, the guard that opened fire didn’t hit anything important. I check the back of the truck, just to confirm, and sure enough there is no money anywhere.

  This was an execution, not a meeting.

  I shake my head and climb back into the truck. My laptop is still in my bag, so I pull it out and flip open the lid. I quickly make an uplink and send a message to command.

  “Cover blown. Go forward with operation. Extraction needed.”

  I lean back and wait, dabbing at my wounds. They’re mostly superficial, and I know I’ll survive. I manage to get out the rest of the spines by the time I get my response.

  “Roger. Extraction coming. Units in place. Attack commences two hours. Over and out.”

  I lean back with a sigh and a smile.

  Finally, they’re coming. They’re finally going to listen and get over their fucking cowardly hesitation. At least they had units in the area, waiting and ready to go. We drove for about an hour and a half, so I need to hurry to get back to the compound before the attack starts. I need to find Riley and make sure she’s safe through all of this.

  I pull the truck around and start driving. There’s a GPS unit on the dash with the compound’s location already programmed in there. I enter the information and hit the gas, jumping forward.

  I’m going to save her. I’m coming for her. Just hold on, Riley.

  27

  Riley

  The boredom is starting to eat at my mind again, although it’s barely been a few hours since I was taken into my new room. I didn’t realize just how much those books were helping me pass the time, but without them I’m just stuck obsessing about everything that’s happening.

  There are more footsteps in this part of the compound and I can hear voices in a nearby room. At first, they’re barely a muted buzz, but soon I hear shouting and thumps. I don’t know what they mean, but I know that whatever’s happening isn’t good.

  Fear wells up inside of me but I have to work to push it back. I can’t let myself give in to whatever game they’re p
laying with me. I have to hold on, or else I’m going to ruin everything. Logan needs me to be strong, and regardless of whether he’s alive or not, that’s what I’m going to do.

  After the shouting stops, there’s silence for about ten minutes, maybe more, before I hear footsteps outside of my room.

  The door slides open and the bald man steps in. He shuts the door behind him and smiles at me.

  “I’m Anton,” he says. “And you’re mine. Do you understand that? I own you. Logan worked for me.”

  I sit up and stare at him. “Logan worked for you?”

  “That’s right.”

  “What do you mean ...worked?”

  He smiles at me slowly, that wicked and gross smile again. He looks like a pig. Or at least he looks like what a pig would look like if it were pure fucking evil.

  “He’s not with us any longer,” he says.

  “What happened to him?” I feel desperate and I know I shouldn’t be asking questions, but I can’t help it.

  “You’re fond of Logan,” Anton says. He walks over and sits down at the foot of my cot. “I can understand that. He was a handsome man, I’ll give him that.”

  “Was ...?” I’m practically pleading with him.

  I have to know what happened to Logan. I have to know. I can’t sit around without finding out if he’s alive or dead, forever in suspense.

  “It doesn’t matter, Riley,” Anton says. “Maybe he’s alive and maybe he’s dead. Is that what you want to know?”

  “Yes,” I beg. “Please. I just need to know if he’s alive.”

  “I see.” Anton leans back and sighs. “It’s been a very trying day, you know. Very trying. You know I have a shipment coming up?”

  I don’t know what he’s talking about and I really don’t care. My whole body is screaming for more information about Logan but he’s clearly not giving me any. I can already tell that this man likes to play games.

  He’s the boss. That’s obvious. He’s the guy that runs this whole operation, and I know that I need to be careful. If this man is the one in charge, that means he’s a very dangerous man. He’s probably broken many, many girls already, and probably killed even more. I’m in danger with every passing second this man sits near me.

  I don’t know how I know this. I can just sense it. I’ve been around horrible men my whole life and maybe I’ve just developed a sense for it. I knew Logan wasn’t a bad person instinctively, deep down inside of my body, in the same way that I just know that this man is rotten.

  It’s the way he’s looking at me, like I’m not a person but a piece of luggage. He says he owns me, and although Logan said similar things, I think this man really means it literally. He owns me like a piece of property, and I’m his to do with whatever he wants.

  That includes breaking me. Physically breaking me.

  I have to be careful, but I have to know the truth about Logan. I need to find some way to get it out of him.

  “Do you want to talk to me about it?” I ask, leaning toward him.

  I don’t expect him to backhand me. It comes out of nowhere. He whips his hand and smacks it across my jaw, sending stars dancing across my vision. I collapse back onto the cot, curling up into the fetal position.

  He grins at me. “Did I fucking ask for you to speak, bitch?”

  I stare at him quietly.

  “Good. There you go. Learned your lesson. You speak when spoken to.” He leans back against the wall, smiling again, looking innocent and normal but I saw it, there for a second, the beast inside of him.

  “So, lots of stress. I don’t need you pretending like you give a fuck. I’m sure you’re just trying to get me to open up about Logan.” He sneers and spits on the ground. “That stupid fuck.” He looks at me, shaking his head.

  Why does he hate Logan so much? He has to have seen through Logan’s façade. Or maybe he can sense these things, just like I can, and knew that Logan wasn’t like the rest of them.

  That has to be it. This guy can sense these things, just like I can, but he didn’t like what he felt about Logan. Now that Logan is out of the picture, wherever he is, this Anton guy is going to take it out on me.

  All because Logan was good to me. All because Logan tried to save me, to shield me from the worst of it. My time here was easy compared to most of the girls, and now this bastard Anton is going to try and take that away from me. He’s going to try and taint Logan’s memory as much as possible.

  “And now your precious Logan is all gone. He treated you like a queen, even made sure you were okay with everything that happened.” He grins at the look on my face. It’s pure and abject horror.

  “That’s right,” he continues, moving closer to me. “We were listening. We heard everything you two said to each other. Absolutely everything. We even heard you, too.” His grin is disgusting and I want to hit him or scream, but I know that will only make it worse.

  “Your moans ...they haunt me. You know that, girl? Your moans have stuck in my head and won’t go the fuck away.” He reaches out and grabs me by the hair, tearing me toward him. I cringe and cower but I don’t fight.

  “Now I want to hear those moans,” he says into my ear. “I want to hear them from your own fucking mouth.”

  He releases my hair and hits me again. I back up, crawling into the corner, and he laughs.

  “Go ahead, run away. There’s nowhere to go. You’re mine now. And you’re not going to like it.” He stands and looks down at me.

  “Where is Logan?” I ask him weakly.

  He cocks his head to the side. “Did I say you could speak?” He hits me again. I cover my head and hide away. “No, I fucking didn’t. God, what is it about that fucking guy that you liked so much?”

  “He didn’t treat me like a dog,” I say.

  Anton punches me in the mouth. Instantly, I can feel blood well up on my lips and I check my teeth with my tongue. None of them seem missing, thankfully, and I spit a wad of blood onto the ground.

  He laughs, watching me with his arms crossed.

  “Logan was a big fucking pussy,” he says. “If he just played along and did what he was supposed to do, we wouldn’t have this problem. You’d be broken and I wouldn’t have to come in here and clean up his mess.” He walks across the room and looks into the mirror. “You think I like doing this? Answer me.”

  “Yes,” I say, watching him. He watches me back through the mirror.

  “Well, you’d be correct.” He straightens up, laughing. “I fucking love this. I love breaking stubborn bitches like you. Except I don’t like having to do it on a time crunch. I like to take my time, find ways to hurt you that you can’t even imagine. I like to get you to the point where you’re not just afraid of more pain, but you welcome me as a savior. I have three girls standing in the other room right over there, you know that? There’s an open window and they could jump out of it at any time, but they won’t.”

  “Why?” I ask him, defiant.

  “Because they want to be here, the stupid whores. They’re broken shells. They don’t know anything else anymore.”

  I clench my jaw and look away. This man is so revolting that I can barely stand it.

  But I can see how that would happen. It happened with me. My father broke me a long time ago and I lived in his house, every single day, never running away although I could have. I was just too afraid and thought that my father knew what was best for me.

  I know better now. I’ve seen real abuse, and I know what my father did to me was it. I know that I can survive now.

  Although I’m not sure I can survive this.

  Anton turns and walks slowly toward me, talking the whole time.

  “You see, men are disgusting. We’re pigs. They just want some hot warm hole to hump until they drop a load, and then it’s back home to the wife and the kids.” He stops in front of me and crouches down. “Some of them want the fantasy. They want to pretend like the slut is enjoying their little prick, too. But the guys that come to me, they know the trut
h. They don’t give a fuck.”

  I stare into his eyes and don’t know what to say. He’s sick and twisted, and I know not all men are like that. Logan isn’t like that.

  “Where’s Logan?” I ask him finally.

  “Dead,” he says with a wicked grin. “Feel better now? I had my best man drive him out to the desert and put a bullet in his skull. He’ll be a rotting corpse by now.” Anton takes my hand. “Your life is mine now, bitch.”

  I stare back as terror and pain rip me apart.

  Logan, the only man to take me seriously, to treat me well. He made me feel things I never really imagined before. And as soon as I truly realized that I was falling in love with him, this bastard steals him away.

  I fell in love with Logan and now he’s dead. Maybe I’m cursed to be alone and abused for the rest of my life.

  But no, no, I can’t do that. He was ...everything. And without him, I have nothing to live for. I know it, deep down inside of me. I was holding on to life just because I thought he might still be alive, but now I know the truth. Now I know for sure.

  Logan is dead. He’s gone and he’s never coming back. Whatever is left of my life will be short, brutal, and full of misery.

  But I have no reason to keep living. I truly don’t. So why not end it all?

  I can’t kill myself. I don’t have the strength. But I know someone that will do it for me.

  This bastard. Anton. He’ll kill me if I raise a hand against him. I’m sure of it. If I hurt him as badly as I can as quickly as I can, he’ll kill me. Maybe it’ll be slow but at least it’ll happen and I’ll be free. It can be my last act on this world. I can die knowing that I made a choice and followed it through.

  I can choose to die. These bastards can’t enslave me and force me to do things that I don’t want. It’s either that or death, and I’ll make my choice.

  I bunch my fists, readying myself. It’s going to hurt. I know it’ll hurt. But I can take pain. I’ve taken pain my whole life. That’s not the issue. I just hope it doesn’t break me even more.

  I’ll go for his eyes. Maybe blind him. I’ll jam my fingers into his right eye as hard as I can and then attack him. Maybe it’ll destroy his eye for good, I can’t really say.